UNPREDICTABLE…deal with it?

I will carry on

Written on January 11, 2009 – 10:57 pm | by catleyabeverlyn

I will carry on….
Composed by: Catleya Pagwagan ( 1-9-09)

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Although life is made of uncertainties,failures and doubt…

Sometimes your up. Oohh! Sometimes your down and fright..

But sun will shine and all will be bright…

HE will guide me and show me the light…

CHORUS

So, come what may,

I’ll still hold on.. ( I will go on)

Though troble came…(Oohh!)

I will carry on…

To serve you LORD…( my dear Lord)

To serve you..LORD

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Even if, I’ll have to sacrifice all I have…

I’ll give and offer ’till the end of time…

I will praise you my dear LORD, forevermore…

Your love can cease the fear I have inside….

( Repeat Chorus)

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I know, how hard it is without you, LORD…

I will hope limitless because you cared and loved..

I will promise to be strong in my sojourn…

Please, Bless my wounded heart to ease all pain…

(Repeat Chorus twice)

CODA:

I will carry on..

( forever more…)

I will serve you LORD…

( Come what may..)

I will carry on…

(Dear Lord…)

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DADDY

Written on January 11, 2009 – 10:42 pm | by catleyabeverlyn

By: Catleya Pagwagan

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Nais kong ikaw ay pasalamatang tunay…

Sa mga sakripisyo na iyong inialay..

Walang hanggang pasasalamat ang maaring sambitin.

Sa iyong kabutihang puso para sa amin…

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Di ka sumusuko sa hamon ng buhay.

Bagama’t pagod at hirap , kami ay itinataguyod.

Suporta at kalinga laging sa ami’y ibinibigay..

Taos puso kang magmahal tunay na tunay…

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Mahal na mahal ka namin, Daddy

Ikaw ang inspirasyon sa aming buhay.

Pangarap ko ay maging iyong karangalan…

At ikaw ay bigyan ng  kasiyahan…

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PRESCRIPTION

Written on January 11, 2009 – 10:34 pm | by catleyabeverlyn

Composed by: Catleya Pagwagan (1-10-09)

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You look like an angel from above…

Made to make me smile and shine,

A gift from our dear God divine,

To hold, to care and tenderly love…

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Your eyes is  as pure as your heart…

Your kiss is a poison which is sweet…

Your tender touch is as precious as gold…

Your face is like an innocent beautiful child,,

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How can I define someone so wonderful…

Saying your name makes me feel special…

Your charm simply fascinate my whole life…

Definition is not enough for you existence…

4

Your my ever word in this wicked world.

Our God prescribed you to ease my wound…

He recommend to take you as my remedy…

For pain to have fast and advance recovery…

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So, if somehow I will die tonight…

That’s because I hold you very tight..

And I forgot to blink at night..

To see my star shining so bright…

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Year 2008

Written on December 26, 2008 – 12:12 am | by catleyabeverlyn

This year is one of the TOUGHEST year in my life…
2008 is very remarkable..(red mark!)
If iI will be given a chance to rate myself, although red mark but on the contrary I will still give 8 out of 10…(Bravo!)

I’ve learned a lot this year..Thanks 2008!
For the experiences, mistakes and lessons….
The race is not yet over…
I still have CHANCES..

If I struggle this year,,I believe that this coming 2009 .. I will triumphant…
Because life is like a roller coaster ride…
Sometimes your up, sometimes your down….
Only God Knows!

A Dios! 2008… Sa pag-alis mo,,Please carry all my burdens..
thanks…

Hurray! 2009
Let’s make life worthwhile…

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( 2008 ) I’ve learned…

Written on December 26, 2008 – 12:10 am | by catleyabeverlyn

I’ve Learned….

1. to say NO

2. to do not TRUST someone easily…

3. to VALUE my FAMILY..( how IMPORTANT they are to me)

4. not all FRIENDS are REAL…

5. to UNDERSTAND myself as well as others for their IMPERFECTION.

6. to APPRECIATE life at it’s BEST even if you STRUGGLE.

7. to be more AGGRESSIVE towards my feelings…( SPEAK OUT!)

8. not to LISTEN to SOMEONE advice because it may lead you to HARMFUL SITUATION.

9. to CONSULT my family first before friends.

10. to THINK SEVERAL TIMES before making DECISION.

11. to LOVE GOD above ALL..

12. to GIVE my 98% TRUST to my BF because Long distance relationship is HARD..but 2% for petty”selos”moves…hahahahah!=)

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UNTITLED

Written on December 23, 2008 – 2:47 am | by catleyabeverlyn

I don’t want to entertain you in my mind….
I’m in deep trouble and I don’t want to think about you anymore….
You don’t deserve me…And I think it’s better to end this chapter this way with love in our hearts…
Rather, end it realizing my imperfection…

I want you to be happy in your own world…
Don’t look back because you might fall…
Just forget about me….
Don’t worry I will be fine…
I’m a big girl now…

I don’t want to argue with you again…
I hate myself because of my childish act…
That is why I’m letting you go…
Because I don’t want you to hate me as much as I hate myself….

Go on fly…As far as you can…
I will fly behind you but I will not fly with you….
So if time comes that you feel tired, There is someone to catch you…
But never look back…

I want to be alone in my journey…
I want to fly behind you all alone….
Because I don’t want you to feel the same pain that I’ve experienced…
Please understand me….I want to fix my life all by myself…

I want you to be proud of me…
So, I might take the first step…
If I hurt you today..I’m very sorry..
I’d rather hurt you today than hurt you for the rest of your life…
You deserve to fly high….Don’t look back….

Soon, will meet again…
And by that time I know,
You’ll be proud of me..
All the pain cease…

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ACCEPTANCE

Written on December 23, 2008 – 12:14 am | by catleyabeverlyn

I made mistakes in my life.
I’ve let people take advantage of me.
and I accepted ways less than I deserve.
But, I’ve learned from my bad choices, and even though
There are things that I can never get back and people who will never be sorry,
I’ll know better next time and I won’t settle for anything less than I deserve…

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25

Written on November 25, 2008 – 11:30 pm | by catleyabeverlyn

November 26, 2008, 16 days left before my 25th b-day…I can still remember yesterday, when I was still 4 years old, wearing white sando and red short…I was lying in my bed..thinking why im here in this crazy world…Thinking what other people think, wondering what if I can read their mind…dreaming what will be my life after 10 years…..=)
When I was a sophomore of Baliwag University at the age of 14…I am very happy kase teenager na ako….heeeheeheee! tpos na ung chapter ng elementary days ko, which is very exciting talaga kase I’ve been so busy joining beauty contest, declamation contest and even running for school organization..Thanks to Mr. Noel Flores kase he helped me boost my confidence and train me to be productive at that stage of my life…MASAYa sobrang saya ng elementary days ko sa Sto.Nino Academy…mas active ako as a student nun elementary unlike hyskul and college kaya sobrang memorable skin un…=)
When I was in Hayskul…Syempre…happiness din kase I’ve been with different friends…1v-gulaman…mixture ng mga kaibigan ko from different section..heheheh!!!syempre, declamataion contest and some school organization na nman ang tinarget ko….pero syempre madaming kalokohan rin and cutting classes..hahahaha! miss ko na sila rachel ann,glaiza,pamela and aubrey and kikO kapag nag-cutting kme in the afternoon kase we want swimming….kakamiss…..=)or breakfast and dinner sa mcdo with them and aljon, gemayel,tin,lui,celso,ron,eric,jecel,becca,xtian,at marami pang iba….
Xcited din ako na mag-sweet sixteen kase in preparation for my 18th bday..hahaha!16 pa lang ako gumagawa na ako ng list ng mga 18 roses and 18 candles ko…Aga ng preparation noh? kaya nung time na nag-18th b-day na ako, instead of having a bongang bongang party all of a sudden hindi tulad ng expected ko and dream debut ko..pero masaya pa rin kahit may disaster…Pero Im very thankful to my family kase pinaghandaan nila un..tsk salamat sa 8250..hahahah!
When I was 19 excited na akong mag 22 kase i’m expecting na graduate na ako nun and makakapag-work na ako…it happened naman in the right time pero hindi lahat ng ineexpect ko….
Now that I am 24 turning 25 this coming december natatakot ako…pero syempre let’s face the fact na lahat ng tao tumatanda….NAtatakot kase ako dahil sa pagtanda ko kasabay din ung pagtanda ng parents ko……I don’t want to celebrate my birthday kase deep inside hindi naman ako happy….
It’s tough gettin older….Feeling ko, mas lalong hihirap ung decision making ko sa buhay….Pwede bang mag-pause?rewind?or fast forward para mapaghandaan ung magiging struggle….
Pero hindi talaga pwede e, palabas na tinatawag na BUHAY walang pause, walang rewind,walang fast forward..PLAY lng ng PLAY….
what will happen next? HE is the only One na nakakaalam….HE is our director….We are just an actor….
What lies ahead of us?none of us can tell….ONLY GOD KNOWS…
I entrust to HIM EVERYTHING….

No REGRET, Don’t EXPECT but HOPE and always have FAITH and give LOVE….

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Romeo and Juliet

Written on November 22, 2008 – 9:04 am | by catleyabeverlyn

“Parting is such a SWEET SORROW…” - juliet

*** I agree to juliet’s statement….based on my personal experience…mahirap ang malayo sa mga taong minamahal mo…but then, that’s your chance to prove to them how much you love them…Sa parting time kase mo din ma-realize ung importance nila sa buhay mo…Lahat ng mistakes na nagawa mo sa kanila, lahat ng pagkukulang mo…lahat un ma-realize mo,, then you will think of some ways para makabawi sa kanila lalo na sa panahon na makakasama mo na sila….mas lalo mo silang minamahal..mas lalo mo silang maiintindihan at ma-appreciate…***

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Quote 101

Written on November 21, 2008 – 12:35 pm | by catleyabeverlyn

“You have to sell your look and you gotta be fierce, you gotta be strong and confident in every day, because every day is a challenge.”

- tyra banks

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Almost PERFECT

Written on November 21, 2008 – 12:13 pm | by catleyabeverlyn

When I looked into your eyes, I see myself smiling at you…
When I gently hold your soft hands, I feel your overwhelming care…
When I hug you tight,I heard your heart bit so fast…
When I kissed you, I can say,,How much YOU LOVE ME…

You looked at me without judging and accusing…
You hold me and never let me go…
You embraced me with tender love and care…
Your heart is as gentle as your kiss…

Indeed, A perfect someone that every woman wish to have…
A love that is uniquely given by a perfect man…
You’re definitely the gift that I wish for, from above…
Question is….Do someone PERFECT like YOU, deserves IMPERFECT ME…

-Nov.22, 2008-
by: Keira
at the sofa

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43 kg to 54 kg

Written on November 15, 2008 – 10:14 pm | by catleyabeverlyn

from 43 kg now I weight 53 kg….In fairness, nakakataba ba ang stress….
My ideal weight is only 45 kg, now instead of loosing weight because of stress and aneklavu in life now I gained almost 10 kg and I’m proud to say that I’m continuously gaining more….That’s because of loads and loads of sleep after some months of sleepless night…Bunches of rice intake….
OMG! I want to reduce weight na….pero gusto ko i-maintain ung chubby face ko ulet pero gusto kong bawasan ang aking built in salbabida…..

Disiplina sa sarili.

kailangan ko ng mag-exercise….or else or else,,, baka pag-uwi ko d nko makilala nila mama…..(++)sarap kase kumain e kapag puyat, sarap matulog pag may problema..halllllerrrr! gawaing tamad….
kailangan before 2009 jan. 01, I’m back na sa 45 kg..=) hopefully!

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